A Dream of a Smile




If there’s anything I would like to change about my body, that would definitely be my facial expression. All the time people who don’t know me well, comment that my facial expression when I don’t smile looks very fierce and offending. I don’t know why or the reason they are saying that but that’s what everybody feels the same and told me. It has affected my social life tremendously because people who do not know me well will say that with my facial expression, I’m currently in an angry mood thus looks unfriendly. This has prevented people from knowing me well or make friends with me. I do not realize that myself but after some day I decided to self examined my expression in the mirror. In fact, I was shocked as what they were saying is true. When I don’t smile with my original relax expression, my face looks very fierce and unfriendly. After that, I tried to smile more often hoping to cover up my awkward facial expression but that doesn’t help as well.

In fact a friend who actually knows me well told me that my smile looks like “a guy with a gun pointing at his head being forced to smile”. Well so much for that wonderful comment. I was lucky though and in fact my first girlfriend who is also now my wife understands that and accepted me as it is. Don’t know why she liked me, but I guess that’s fate as well. That is something comforting, however this does not goes on well with my job. Often new colleagues who do not know me will always have the sense of security of striking a conversation. I have to pretend to use my words careful because any slight misinterpretation that coupled with my angry facial expression will make people think that I’m trying to be offensive. But alas, that’s not my intention at all and this has certainly not going to help on my career. At least this is not that bad considering I’m working in a factory and not in the service industry whereby I will definitely find a difficult path in my career.

Well that definitely sums it all as to what I want. Although friends and family who know me well often commented about my calm and thoughtful inner characteristics, but with my facial expression that would somehow be conflicting. Well if only I wish I could change that.

wkhaiaun, singapore, 31, a guy with a dream

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