Personal Glimpses

If there’s one thing I could do to change my body, I would really concentrate and focus on my thighs. Ever since a remark made by a colleague sometime back, I’ve been very conscious about them. The clear comment directed at me, was “urgh, what ugly thighs”. My boyfriend would say I was being too sensitive, but it’s really a girl thing which only girls can understand. We want every inch of our body to be perfect. Well it’s been made even more frustrating when everything else about my body seemed fine. I guess its true I am a bit paranoid since everyday I make sure that I look into the mirror to check whether there’s any difference, especially after the treatment of lipid absorption cream which I’ve applied.

Well you could be asking why I’m so concerned about my thighs. It looks flabby, sometimes like a stump of an elephant leg. The worst part about it is that I love to wear skirts. I have to stick to wearing jeans and pants, which I don’t like at all. Perhaps another thing that irritates me the most is the sight of protruding veins that appear closer to the knees that makes me even more agitated. The veins are just plain ugly and it’s really an unwelcome sight. Adding insult to injury, I also have a scar on my right leg that was caused by an injury when I feel down from my bicycle when I was young.

All these combined together gave me a real good reason to really look into having plastic surgery. So far I’ve consulted 3 different plastic surgeons, each with their own opinion and approach. I haven’t decided on which one to choose yet because I am saving money to fund the operation. I just hope that once the surgery is done my thighs will be transformed into a complement of my whole body. – Jasmine

What would I change about my body? That would be my smile. I have always wanted a very loving and cheerful smile. My current one doesn’t look nice at all, and it’s like someone being forced to do it. All the pictures that I’ve taken so far look awkward and unpleasant. It is just unnatural like a fake smile you could say. That’s why photos are out for me and the fear of standing in front of a camera is just unbearable. Even my wedding photos have some not so good comments made about it.

Usually when I was together either with my friends or colleagues, I will try to avoid smiling even when I hear some good jokes. Well, there’s another problem with it if I don’t smile, everybody would say that I’m just too serious. Sometimes I do not know what I should do. If I smile, it will look awful but if I don’t, people would think that I’m just being unfriendly. So it’s a dead end probably.

Today, living a life without a smile can be difficult. This is especially important towards your career like when entertaining clients or talking to your boss. It just makes me wonder, with my awful smile will it make the customers feel unpleasant or would it make your boss having less preferences toward you? If there’s a plastic surgery, which can be done to correct that, I will definitely go for it. So far, I was afraid to approach specialist for consultation on how a surgery can be done to correct my smile. Maybe there’s another way, which will not need to involve surgery. I just hope there is one because I want to avoid spending money and also because of my fear of going under the knife.

I was actually lucky to meet my current wife who accepted me even though I have a weird looking smile. She is very understanding and accepted me the way it is. Sometimes even when I’m with her, I also try to avoid smiling. She hasn’t complained about that so far, but if only I have a great smile that would cheer her up and make her happy especially times when she was down.

When I think of it, there are so many things that would have been different if I have a wonderful smile. Life would be happier and exciting with just a simple smile to light thing up. Sadly I do not have that at the moment.

Thomas, 33

If I could change my body, I would like to have a slim, curvy and sexy figure. Ever since I was a little girl, I used to be teased upon by my friends. All sorts of unpleasant remarks and funny names were given to me which made me feel miserable. However, I do not hate them for that but instead always take it as a joke. Sometimes I envy looking at other girls and how I wish I could look just like them but that’s just fairy tale me. Although my whole body shape looks a bit odd, which can be quite funny at times but to me, I always take things positively. I do have a cute and chubby face, which a lot of people commented that they like about it.

So far, I’ve already done so many things to change my appearance but to no success. I tried to lose weight naturally by going on a crash diet. I even spent almost few thousand bucks going on a weight loss program but that only works for a couple of months and after that have to discontinue because my savings have already dried up. My next course of action is to go for the extreme like liposuction which I hope can transformed by whole body. But I was a bit scared since there are many horrors around about failed liposuction.

I don’t go out that often but if I do, I will usually go out with a group of friends who are very supportive and accepted me for who I was. I tried to hide by weight by wearing loose clothes and I usually avoid places where there are many people around. I was just afraid that people will look down on me and sometimes just a normal stare will give me the shivers.

Despite my condition, I don’t blame things or hate myself for that. Both my parents were fat as well and they were happy to be together. I’m glad they always share with me the same experience, which they have gone through before, and how to deal with them. They always reminded me to be thankful and love myself. I just hope that I will be able to meet my perfect guy and get married someday. Maybe if I could change my body, I would like to find out how different life would be if I were to be thin. That would be interesting to find out.

*Catherine, 22 single and still searching for the perfect soulmate.

My name is Anna, I am 25 years old and I am from Romania. I`ve always felt that I have the smallest breasts in the world, and, believe me, it`s not just an over reaction. I`ve been waiting for them to become bigger as I grew older but they remained the same. I feel like I am not a woman but a child. Although my friends tell me that I am beautiful and even that I look sexy, I just can`t get over this complex! I always feel so ashamed when I have to take my clothes off in front of my boyfriend or at the doctor. I really do feel like I am handicapped. People told me that the problem is only in my mind but how can it be like that when I look in the mirror and I see that my breasts are so small, almost like they are missing? How can a woman feel good when an important part of her body is so rudimentary?

I can never change my clothes with people around me. I have serious problem when I have to buy a bra because I don`t even know what size I should ask the salesman to give to me. I can`t wear see through blouses or a sexy t-shirt and there`s no way in hell to go somewhere without wearing a bra under my clothes!

I will never forget how I felt when I was a teenager and a guy asked me while looking at my chest: “Where are your tits?” I felt so bed and it still hurts when I remember that! My boyfriend always said that even if they are small, my breasts are ok but I feel so ashamed when I see that he has almost nothing to hold in his hands almost nothing to touch when we are intimate. This lack of having normal breasts makes me feel uncomfortable with myself and it gives me the impression that I am ugly and incomplete.

I know there are the silicon implants that would make the entire situation so much easier but I am afraid that with my salary I cannot afford something like that. And, sometimes I wonder: even with silicon in my chest, will I ever get over the pain caused by this physical problem? Will I ever walk on streets with no fear that my small breasts will capture the attention of people?

Anna, 25 years old, Romania, still single.

Being a human, I possess the trait of always wanting more. As far as it is concerned about my body, there are many factors that I would wish I can change. I am not necessarily sure if these factors have prevented me from being in a relationship because my cultural and religious customs frown upon relationships.

Nevertheless, I would surely like to get a bigger frame. I am 5’8 and about 120lbs. Most of the people my age are bigger/taller than I am, even the girls. Height is a big factor connected with first impression, and it can already be seen how I start behind other guys just for being short. I would gladly accept my height for it still is taller than the average girl height of about 5’6 to 5’7. However the annoying aspect of this is that girls love wearing heals, and honestly for a man to wear too much heal is not considered very manly. It is not just about height though. I am quite a small person when it comes to my wrist size, or waist. I seldom wear shorts because I have practically “chicken legs”. Being part of this world, no matter how humble one is, they still have the weakness to worry about what the society thinks of them. Sadly, I am the victim of being concerned about the way I look because I want people to compliment me when they look at me.

Another desired feature for me is having chiseled abs. I have worked out for so many years and quite honestly my results have been very impressive. I am ripped and cut everywhere, yet I have still to see those chiseled abs. Either it is genetics, or I am too lazy to work on my abdominals, they just don’t become prominent. It is of blatant fact that girls just fantasize over having a guy with chiseled abs. I am sure this is not me, but every guy in the world to want to have fine looking abs that they can show off at the beach or the gym.

These few things regarding my body are probably not my only concern. I know the moment I start looking at some body part or start comparing myself to others, I would have more concerns emerging regarding my body. As mentioned earlier, I am not quite sure if these factors have affected my relationships. I think unconsciously, it could be the very reason why I am single today and also why I work really hard to gain some of the desires features pertaining to my body.

Antonio – 20 – Toronto

I love soccer and I’ve always wanted to be able to play to the best of my ability. Ever since when I was a young kid, I love to watch all the major soccer players in action on TV. They were so cool and full of energy. Apart from watching soccer games, I played the game as well and usually with a bunch of my buddies, we will spend our whole weekend playing soccer until the sunsets. That was those days. In fact I wish and always dreamed to be a full-fledged soccer star earning as a professional. Because of that dreams, if there’s a chance for me to change my body, that would be to make my body become athletic like all the soccer stars with powerful and muscular legs. This might sounds crazy but believe me, this is what I would have wanted if I had that kind of wish.

Everytime, when me and my friends get together for a game, I will usually turn to be the worst performer. I get tired easily and my kicks were not as powerful as they were. Whenever the ball is with me, I’ve always failed to outrun them or to be able to pose a strong challenge or tackle. However, in terms of skills, like controlling the ball, I usually stand out above the rest but because of my physical attributes, I lose out to them. Well, if only I have powerful and muscular legs that would be possible. That coupled together with my skills and ability, perhaps I would be able to fulfill my dream to be a soccer star and earn handsome salary and contracts. That would certainly be rewarding and it’s something I’m willing to trade for anything else in this world. Some people would not pass the chance to be a secret agent but for me, a soccer star is much better and that is only possible if I can change my body.

Wow, if only I wish that could be possible, my whole life would have changed. The ability to run and sprint, jump and head the ball, strong and powerful, and of course get the attention of girls. Don’t get me wrong here, even though I’m married but at least I can still relive those dreams which I’ve always wanted since young and do something important before I grow old. Back to the question above, if there was one thing I would like to change about my body, that would be to make me have a full athletic, strong, muscular and powerful body.

ason, 26.